The Plan

So here it is, as promised...the plan!  Food-wise, my plan is to meal prep.  I see everyone and their cousin doing this on Instagram, and they're all losing weight, so it must work.  My hesitation about meal prepping this whole time is that...I just thought the food wouldn't taste good.  How can re-heated chicken, brown rice and broccoli taste good??  Even with seasonings?  But you know, I've gotten to the point where I'm realizing that taste is a sacrifice I need to make.  I know there are ways to take what I love to eat and just make them more nutritional (like those Healthy Girl cookbooks, or whatever they're called) and maybe eventually I will go that route, but right now, I just need a structured plan to follow.  And meal prep--as fearful as I am that I won't be able to stick to it--I just need to give it a real shot.  I'm gonna still try to make it as tasty as possible.  Let me run it down with a little more detail:

Once a week, I will make 12 meals (6 lunches and 6 dinners) so it will last me 6 days.  I will choose one day (essentially, my 7th day) as a free day to eat whatever restaurant or take out I want.  Breakfast will be something simple like yogurt or a smoothie so I can't really prep those.  The six lunches and six dinners will consist of the following: 1) turkey meatballs, whole wheat pasta, and broccoli, 2) baked or grilled salmon, sweet potato mash, and brussel sprouts, 3) grilled chicken, rice noodles, and mixed veggie stir fry, and 4) grilled shrimp, pineapple brown rice, and green beans.  Now, here's the thing about my plan....I can't start it yet!  It really really sucks but I am so broke right now that I can't go grocery shopping, or really do anything else, until I get paid next week.  So in reality, this plan can't even start until next week.  I might just use next week's weigh in as my official start since I really don't feel like I'm even losing weight at this point.  I might have even gained, since I've been eating brownies for the last couple of days.  This actually leads me to another thing I wanted to discuss....

I've been feeling really, really down lately.  I don't wanna go too far into it because I feel like this post is already getting long enough!  I think I'm just letting the fact that I'm broke really get to me, and that I'm at my highest weight get to me.  I've been in bed a lot, I haven't even left my house or showered or gotten dressed (gross, I know)....I'm a teacher so I haven't had work in a long time.  My first day back is this Wednesday, in 2 days.  Maybe just having that routine well really help me too.  Anyway, after I submit this post, I'm going to go down to the gym in my complex.  Then, I'm going to come home, take a shower, get dressed in a real outfit lol, and even do my makeup.  I just need to get myself out of this funk.  I will check in later....until next time :)

The beginning....

And I've had SO many beginnings.  That's OK though...as long as I never give up.  Starting over again is a sign that I'm still trying, and that's pretty good.  What's that quote from National Treasure (which is supposedly a quote from Thomas Edison)?  Something about Edison finding a thousand ways that the light bulb would not work...but it was OK because all he needed was to eventually find just one way that did work.  And that's how I feel...maybe I've just found a thousand, or maybe even a million ways for my weight loss not to work.  But I'm on the brink of finding that way...I will find that one way.  I will lose weight, dammit!  I am going to go hop on the scale in a minute and report what it says on here.  I am absolutely the worst in keeping up with blogs but I think it will help to actually keep with it this time.  I'm going to weigh in every Saturday (because today is Saturday) and also post what I'm eating, how I'm exercising, etc.  So that's it!  Expect an edit shortly :)

EDIT://  Ok, so the scale read......drumroll please.....248.5!  I weigh 248.5 pounds which is my heaviest weight EVER.  I never in a million years thought I would weigh this much.  Whenever I was in the 190s, I thought that I would never be in the 200s, and then when I was in the 200s, I thought oh I will never go above 210...and so on.  This was back in college by the way.  In the past few years I've crept up to the 230s which I thought was so huge...and now close to 250???  I don't know how this happened but obviously something needs to change.  Just typing this up is helping though...I'm just putting it out there, I can't really hide from it anymore.  I've gotta find that something within me, that something that will finally kick my butt into changing things.  So anyway, for lunch I had two grillers, which are veggie burgers.  Tonight I'm making either stir fry or tacos.  I guess it would help to type up some sort of plan, and then I could report if I'm sticking to that plan.  That will be the next post.  Until next time :)